Thursday, August 16, 2012

Measuring Success

"To be successful, you must decide exactly what you want to accomplish, then resolve to pay the price to get it." -- Bunker Hunt

So, I'm sitting at work today, minding my own business, sulking (if I'm being honest), when I open a planner I was given and BAM! this quote.


First, I need to explain the sulking.

This week I participated in an online writing conference - WriteOnCon.  I'm still looking at all of the posts (work doesn't make it easy).  Anyway, I posted my query, my first 250 words, and my first 5 pages in the forum.  Got some amazing feedback from other writers.  But see, there were agents browsing.  Man oh man did I want a little feedback from one of them.  Anything.  Even 'this sucks'.  

Okay, not that.

But, much to my dismay, not only was I left without feedback, but my entire genre seemed to be skipped. 


Apparently, I have really awful timing.  Dystopian just isn't the thing to try to sell right now.  *sob*

So I'm pouting, sulking, maybe a little depressed.  I've just spent a year (yes, A YEAR) writing, revising, editing, querying, contesting, and everything else I can think of to make this story what it needs to be.  And...nothing.  

This is where the quote comes in.  

Yes, I was feeling a little sorry for myself.  Yes, I was cursing the Ninja Agents a little.  Yes, I was having my own brand of hissy fit.  

And then I read these words: resolve to pay the price to get it.


'Haven't I paid enough?' I ask myself.  'Isn't a year a lot?  A lot of time at the computer.  A lot of little notes everywhere.  A lot of time I didn't spend with my kids.'

Before you reach through your computer and slap me, let me say that after I took a deep breath and gave myself a stern talking-to, I got it.  Really got it.

One year is a lot, sure.   But obviously, it's not enough.  The price is higher.  

That begs the question - am I willing to pay the price to get what I want (published)?

The answer:  Yes.  

I realized today that it's going to come down to me.  I need to manage my time better.  I need to define my priorities.  I need to determine what I'm willing to give up and what I won't let go of.  

I'm going to continue to query - even though I know I'm going to see a lot of rejections.  That's just how it is.  *sigh* 

And I'm going to write.  I've got a women's fiction story I'm working on, a sci-fi story I've outlined, a historical fiction story that I'm dying to write (based on my grandfather's adventures as a teen), and a few other ideas I'm still chewing on.  Hell, I could even attack the non-fiction real crime book my brother wants to write with me.

I'm resolved.

And scared out of my mind.  :)



  1. It's a frustrating business, isn't it? Best of luck with your query, and congrats on your new resolve! :)

  2. It is indeed. Subjective. Market-driven. Stress inducing. lol

    Thank you for reading and commenting. :)

  3. Greetings!

    I'm hopping over from GUTGAA and checking out some blogs before the fun begins. Nice to meet have a lovely blog!

    Donna L Martin

    1. Thank you! I'll be hopping around to see yours, too. :)

  4. Hello from Julie (@Willow573)

    Wow it sounds like you've got some great ideas for future projects. Keep us informed of how you are getting on.

    Also please visit and join my blog too, we can exchange views and give support and encouragement.